ohhh

Holding steady so far today. It's like the trail back to my memories of him has been erased. The only thought of him I had this morning was to notice that I hadn't thought of him, and that really wasn't about him, it was about me. That lasted only a split second, and it was gone.

As I was whipping up my breakfast smoothie, I had another ah-ha moment. When I'm not worrying about/planning for the future or ruminating on the past, the only thing left to do is notice the moment. (Yeah, yeah, I know, this is not a big news flash. Thank you Eckhart Tolle.)

I've known about this concept for many years, but it's been a mental construct that I peridically impose on the body as an intention, like this: Pay attention! Feel stuff, dang it!!

This morning was different. My body led the way, entertaining my mind with the pressure of my feet on the cold floor, the hard smooth handle of the fridge, and the song of the blender.

And then it was over, and the next thing was happening. Goodness gracious ... what else have I been missing? I feel like an explorer in my own house. Life is ripe with sensations for the plucking. Gonna get busy checking things out.