pushing it away

keenly aware that I don't want to feel my feelings today: slightly bored, aimless, mildly lonely, and somewhat disconnected from myself. missing him.

found a few distractions earlier. did laundry, answered all my emails, and went for a hike. and I'm running out of ways to escape these feelings.

spose I could try just sitting still and see what happens. but, well .... yuck. that doesn't sound like much fun at all.

I know, maybe I will take a nap. That should kill an hour or so ...

*sigh*

yeah, yeah, I know. the only way out is through.
some days are just gonna be this way.