people really CAN change!

I've been listening to a new Abraham-Hicks CD every month for years, and they always start off the recording by asking if we are enjoying the feeling of our unmet desires. Today, for the very first time, I can really and truly say YES!

My life has lots of balls up in the air right now. Not being able to anticipate the outcome of an uncertain situation used to drive me CRAZY. I would consult my tarot cards, get intuitive readings, journal, open books to random pages .... anything to find the answer so I would know how it would all turn out!

Today as I was driving down the road with the wind in my face and the sun on my arm and Lunatic Fringe by Red Rider blasting on my car stereo, I realized that I actually do love Not-Knowing.

Somehow, without even noticing it, I've become a pleasure-delayer, like the characters in the movie Vanilla Sky. Except not exactly, because it's not that I am delaying gratification. It's that the very process of moving from known to unknown is in itself pleasurable. I'm suddenly in no hurry to arrive.

I love getting a new idea -- for instance, that I want to write a book. First, it's entertaining to daydream about how fun it will be, then I enjoy wondering how it will happen. I feel no urgency or anxiety; simply an almost childlike anticipation and curiosity about how it will unfold.

I think the Old Me used to torment myself by trying to work out all conceivable angles to ensure success. Now, I just sit back and watch for the How to reveal itself to me. I used to make long lists of actions I would need to take to achieve my goals. Now I chill out and wait for inspiration to strike, then act on it. How easy and fun is that?

There's been so much synchronicity and magic in my life lately. I've started waking up each day wondering what Playful Coincidence has in store for me. Every time the phone rings, every corner I turn, I am cheerfully expecting something interesting.

And I know I'm not the only one experiencing this shift. I hear it from friends and clients, too. Whatever this is, I'm delighted to be enjoying it with you.